Enough

I want to tell you I love you

I’m ready to make a promise

But you’re so cold

and I always end up crying

feeling crazy sad

you make me feel like you want me

like you care

but then you turn away quickly

without concern

I need to be free

of this empty future

you never promised for me

by: R.J.

Waves

You have my heart

but you haven’t made promises

The ones I’m always waiting for

To tell you I’m through is impossible

Because of the love I have for you

My best mind reminds

I’ve got to love myself more

so I’ll pull away the best I can

love you from afar

I can’t give my whole heart to someone

who can’t promise me tomorrow

so I’ll put my love in a bottle

toss it in the ocean blue

if you find it on the other side

maybe you’ll decide

that what we could have

would be immeasurable

the boats on the bay will rock softly

and I will come, if you call

by: R.J.

Movies

you told me you got a job at that bar

my day dream eyes sparkled

with a homemade movie of you

a glorified version

edited by a pro

bright yet soft colors

the spotlight stayed behind the bar

lit the back of your head like an angel

the star that you are

serving drinks to unsuspecting strangers

who don’t know that you’re the star

in this movie I’m in the corner

writing this poem as I watch  from afar

my hand on my cheek, looking with love

as the best movie plays on

sweater wrapped around me, I write

people point toward me and say

what a lucky man he is to have

such a faithful girl as she

the movie ends,  we walk away together

the streelight guides the path

together forever

by: R.J.

Time Shift

Time changes things

I’m awake and you are too

You’re out at the club

A woman wrapped around you

I’m all alone

Weary face only lit by the moon

When I fall asleep you do as well

but you have company

I wipe my tears as they fell

on the pillowcase where someone used to be

This shift in time is too much for me

Because although the sunrise separates us

you’ll always be having fun

and I’ll always be waiting,

staring at the rising sun

wondering if when the morning begins

you’ll still care about

your lonely old friend

by: R.J.

My Guy

Sauntering down a cold road

With glassy eyes

He searches  the sky

And thinks of the heartbreak he’s faced

a tear down his cheek

Hands dig deeper into pockets

shoulders square

he walks to the bar

to forget everything

and pretend like tomorrow will be better

as long as he has four pints of beer

by: R.J.

 

 

Just Friends

What to do

keep the conversation going

have faith in you

end it now

while I’m still ahead

only faint scars to show

but you’re a prize

a winner in my eyes

i’ll let things go sour

I’d rather taste the bitter

then be proud, but know there could’ve been more

by: R.J.

Rather Be

I’d much rather have the guy

not the words

I’d rather have the happy ending

then a studio apartment alone

I’d rather be with him

then alone, somewhere I thought I would have rather been

I’d rather be with this man

because without him, nothing is as valuable

He paints the sky grey

and even when I’m happy

Clouds loom above

By: R.J.

 

A Sad Memory

Remember when we took the train into the city by ourselves

and you spoke to me nervously about the present

and I worried in private about the future

you bought me a movie ticket

and grabbed my hands and looked me in the eye  and told me how happy you were to be there with me

and I wasn’t sure what to say

because i felt the same way

but I saw the cracks in the situation

and I knew if i jumped in, we’d both fall through

so I looked back at you and told you how much I liked you, which wasn’t true, I loved you

we went home and I was overwhelmed with the responsibility that comes with love

and you wanted to stay with me

we kissed and you looked at me tenderly

could we be together,

a boyfriend and girlfriend, you asked

I was taken back

because I saw how we’d end

and I don’t wanna set myself up for heartbreak

so I stared , speechless

i wish I had spoken

by: R.J.

Nice girl

I remember I was out at the club

and a man I liked whispered in my ear

“You’re a nice girl, huh?”

i was taken back immediately

how did he know?

was it my shy disposition?

was it my desire to conversate?

was it just a guess?

or a sexy thing to whisper in a quiet woman’s ear?

i looked at him and smiled and nodded

“I try”

i said and turned away

nice girls never know how to escalate situations

sometimes I feel as though nice girls finish last in their twenties

but by 60 I’ll be fine

a nice husband and a paid off house

its hard being nice

by: R.J.