Anyone

how desperately I love you hair

thick and tough, how it flips when you comb it back

anyone could have that, you know

And I love how you love adventure

many men are out there running

on mountain tops and leading companies

so that’s not special either

but maybe your sensitivity is a commodity

but maybe not, because there are better men then you,

Ones who would feel much deeper, be willing to express it too

sometimes I like how you can’t see tomorrow, it makes you so cool,

but it drives me crazy when the sunsets ; and you’re still talking about noon

and how the futures uncertain ; and I know you’re not prepared

whar position does that place me in?

One that’s frail and multilayered

where I’m wanting a promise , but you can’t even promise the hour

I’m giving it all up, all that I thought

If you’ve got a new girl, let her know I said good luck

because being with you

really fucking sucks

by: r.j.

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A Conversation

We talk about astrology

and the way the stars align

You speak to me about death

and how you hate when I cry

I tell you about my thoughts on love

and how it comes in many kinds

Then you remind me to remember

there’s one I forgot

the truest kind

I blush at the thought of true love

and wonder if you are mine

I change the subject

and tell you  your life path number is 11

You smile and say that’s all fake

whats real is people and connections

and how your heart tumbles and falls

when our hands meet

by: R.J.

 

 

Thoughts

Another night at the club

another night without you

im so bored of this world

the violence and the fears

the darkness digs in deeper

yet all I can see is what’s lacking within me

i think I love the idea of you more than I love the actual man

but you’re so far away

I can’t see straight

can’t see if I’m missing out on something that could have been wonderful, great

by: r.j.

Without You

You’re the one I’m looking for

when I’m out at the club

kiss every man my fingertips touch

But none of them are you

theres a trace of you here and there

but you’re the one I want

you’re the light on the dance floor

the floor as it starts to shake

you’re the music and the beat

though how many crowds I turn over

i can never find you

by: R.J.

I swear

I think we could be together forever

in this crazy world for two

I can promise to love you for always

if you can say the same

we could stay together

through the sane and insane

the tides ebb and flow

and the world falls apart

in the night the stars align

and bring us all together as one

i want to walk alongside you

through the foggy air

deal with the ups and downs

I’m ready , I swear

by: r.j.

Enough

I want to tell you I love you

I’m ready to make a promise

But you’re so cold

and I always end up crying

feeling crazy sad

you make me feel like you want me

like you care

but then you turn away quickly

without concern

I need to be free

of this empty future

you never promised for me

by: R.J.

Grey

Remember I told you

a piece of my heart was yours forever

if it meant this trouble, you’d give it back

so we parted ways and I breathed in deep

and felt the world with a piece missing

you told me you had returned it,

though it wasn’t true

three weeks later, I got a call from you

you ring me everyday

but you never have anything to say

so I pull it all away

my heart, my life, the promise to stay

you fade to grey

by: R.J.

Waves

You have my heart

but you haven’t made promises

The ones I’m always waiting for

To tell you I’m through is impossible

Because of the love I have for you

My best mind reminds

I’ve got to love myself more

so I’ll pull away the best I can

love you from afar

I can’t give my whole heart to someone

who can’t promise me tomorrow

so I’ll put my love in a bottle

toss it in the ocean blue

if you find it on the other side

maybe you’ll decide

that what we could have

would be immeasurable

the boats on the bay will rock softly

and I will come, if you call

by: R.J.

Love

Love binds you

its glue

I’m always wondering

are you crazy?

or are you true?

Youre going to hurt me

youre going to make me cry

but the love that keeps me coming back

because our minds collide

save me from myself

love cast a spell

and I’m in bad health

emotionally, not physically

as you can tell

by: R.J.

 

 

Movies

you told me you got a job at that bar

my day dream eyes sparkled

with a homemade movie of you

a glorified version

edited by a pro

bright yet soft colors

the spotlight stayed behind the bar

lit the back of your head like an angel

the star that you are

serving drinks to unsuspecting strangers

who don’t know that you’re the star

in this movie I’m in the corner

writing this poem as I watch  from afar

my hand on my cheek, looking with love

as the best movie plays on

sweater wrapped around me, I write

people point toward me and say

what a lucky man he is to have

such a faithful girl as she

the movie ends,  we walk away together

the streelight guides the path

together forever

by: R.J.